Looking back on this year, I can see that taking breaks from writing was necessary.
I didn't always feel like myself.
I was worn out physically and mentally.
There were weeks that I found myself going through the motions and my schedule left almost no room for other creative endeavors. And when it did, I had to rest as the unsettling symptoms of pain and fatigue worsened.
All I wanted to do was write. Writing helps me process the struggles of living with an invisible illness and disability. It helps me share pieces of my journey when I don't feel like answering questions during a conversation. But, it wasn't a priority, so this passion started to fade into the distance over the last six months.
Similar to what I was sharing recently, I know it's just a season. I know that this year may have looked different than I expected, but that doesn't mean I won't be writing more in the coming months.
Something that blessed me a few weeks ago, was waking up early in the morning. On rare occasions, I'm not able to fall back asleep because of pain, and this was one of those times. Instead of feeling frustrated, I turned on a small reading light by my desk and pulled out my Bible and journal. I spent this quiet time with the Lord through prayer and journaling my thoughts. This helped me refocus on what is important—rest and taking things slowly being one of them.
I hope to have more of these moments in the coming year. To not rush from one thing to the next, but to take the time to write. I've learned that I'm not writing just for myself. This is a passion that God stored in me at a very young age to bless others. But, maybe in order to do more writing, I need to do less of other things.
What are some of your takeaways from 2024?
Usually this time of the year I look back at old journal entries or pictures to remember more of the events from the last twelve months. Of course, there are seasons when I feel discouraged, but there are always blessings that come out of it.
Some may focus on what they want to change in the new year. While others are just trying to get through today. I want to encourage you not to overwhelm yourself with how you want 2025 to look. But to take it one day at a time. And trust that God will help you through any challenge this season brings.
Sorry for your suffering. Grateful for your refection and writing. We live in a moment which is rushed and pressured. I agree God wants us to rest and stay focused on Him and His rhythm. Trust and abide and He will give you the time.